Old Memories

Juz sittin around, gg thru sum old pics n i realised, this..
I stil hav no idea what THIS is!!



..That's all ^^

Deiohik

inspired by time..

See? If I put my mind to it, I can do anything..*ahem* "anything"...*ahem*
Can't say the thought didn't cross my mind the 1st time you said it though. Never connected it that way until I read that ^^
But the journey was worth the while. It was nice, and dare I say..beautiful. That word does not come easy to my speech, nor thoughts actually. But I guess reading about something like that gives everyone the same impression I suppose. So raw.
Beautiful, and clever too. I wonder if I'll ever come up with something like that one day...and at such an age..I'm flattered XD

I wonder what makes a person? My best bet would be anything but that person himself though. Living by yourself(and that means, no other objects, at all, or at least not being able to perceive them, in any way)since birth means you are no one. You cannot be. The Pros and Cons table. Comparing objects to one's self is essential. Simply, relativity.
Scene;
「What would happen raising a human from birth in a dark room with only enough food and exercise to keep him healthy...even then, even then the brightness everytime the door is opened, the food, the plate it's on, the door, whatever machines used to keep the fitness of that person...curiosity, I wonder if one is born with it.」

Or maybe...maybe I'm a little off after all. Perhaps, we are like a huge transmuting box, collecting events, memories, and then, our soul, it combines them together..each person having a distinguishing soul allowing the exact same environmental factors to piece together and merge in a whole different way. Talk about DNA and evolution. We're talking about billions of people(souls), infinite events occurable(if such a word is permitted ^^)

Which leads us(me)to the question, what is a soul? Thinking about it as a part of our brain process, or what some people relate to as 'the heart', it certainly does limit the possibilities compared to a creativists viewpoint, since in that case infinity is the limit, so to speak. After all, chemical reactions are limited in their numbers and reactivity towards each other...so what is a soul?..

I have also just realised that though many years back I could never tolerate "..." this notation in any other form accept combined, lately I've been tolerating ".."...I wonder why's that..

"I was thinking of writing an answer but I won't. I am not, so I won't. I do hope someone else picks it up though, or you'll be wasted. Seeing such..a being going to waste, I will cry for you. I will. So, please, find true happiness. True."
A wish upon a falling star.

Well...certainly does not sound as cool as yours but it'll do, for this.

Inspired by time? But I've always wondered..should?

Dinner

The only thing not English about my breakfast is the garlic on my toast and the Coke I drank with it

Been meaning to post this for some time now..

And last but definitely not least, a lil somethin 4 my sis ^^ Cant post the whole vid i took tho. 2 large XD

What I've been up to lately...but to busy* to post

"Photos!!"
"Do I hear a photos?!"
^^




花火 hanabi watching some time ago...look at the amount of ppl `0`





Got visited by a praying mantis some not 2 long ago XD Stayed de whole day

Piece of autumn ^^

外語祭 Gaigosai-Foreign Languages Festival, or what some people say is the festival of 外国語大学, where I study at..watever..=P

I LOOOVE autumn. Only second to a winter with snow ^^


A view. From my balcony.

Tokyo Tower!!




From Tokyo Tower.

Rainbow Bridge








A photo of me! ^^

Mt. Fuji!!

Elevator!!!

Night.

From somewhere far away. Tokyo Tower, end.

The start of mania


And with that I shall leave you with this,

Bye.
^^

Squintin....

Some people say people don't change.

Some say we can't change.

Still some say we must change.

Others hope the ones around them will change.

Chocolate banana.

Is it really that hard to just listen?

Wind.

"Without a thought, not a moment of contemplation, he lashed out his deadly whip which is none but his own"

Okashii?? But isn't this how we're supposed to be like?

Just because most, if not everyone, thinks something is weird doesn't make it wrong

In reality,

it happens to all of us. So slowly that some never ever realise it,

the rest don't want to acknowledge it

"You think you know me better?"

Saku.

Lil (bt not so) tots

every1 thinks dat his/her opinion, tote, point is correct, for a certain time in their lifes whether or not dey change b4 or afta is a diff matter. Wat matters is those certain points in their life, ok mayb not exactly points, bt moments, n oso how long those moment(s) last...durin those moments, dey can affect u in a small or big way, in a -ve or +ve way...it can spark off a small, innocent fight wif ur frens, family or any1 u noe...it can cause dat same lil argument 2 escalate 2 a greater height, not dat any1 1ted dat in de 1st place...n in dat moment, dat toteful moment, v can even hurt n/or scar de ppl v talk 2 wif or w/o noeing it, er, emotionally of cos.

It can lead us 2 believe dat v can do things v 1 2, bt is practically, technically, theoritically impossible tho v dun think so in those moments. Frm there a feeling of disgust, of a certain lvl of spite, of disappointment, emerges, hatches, grows. Those feelings v hold 4 those who did not 1 2 go ahead wif wat v were thinkin. No, it's true. No matter how or wat u try 2 tell urself or those around u (or me 4 dat matter XD) there is these thing...broodin in us...will it go away? Prayer is all v can do, it is. No self-encouragin words, or self-motivational books nor chattin away n bickerin about our probs 2 any of our frens will wash it all away, no matter how hard v wanna believe it will. It wont. I hear u say, "why dun u try, at least?". Why? It's like askin sum1 y dun u try out drugs, it mite not actually kill u. Or mayb askin sum1 "hey, y dun v go 4 a round of russian roulette? Cos u noe...it's fun n it mite all juz turn out ok ;)". Oh but wat if it doesnt? Wat happens 2 de person pullin de trigger, worse is wat if de guys pointed de guns at each other n tried firin? A part of us dies dat's wat. U c examples everywhere around u bt u stil stick 2 wat u think is rite, wat u feel is ok 2 do, livin in dat moment, for dat period of time.

N oso, livin in dat moment, it can oso cos u 2 feel dat u're greatly inept at wat u r doin. 2 cos u 2 look down upon urself n therefore perform worse, much worse den u actually r. N frm there everythin juz goes all de way down the hill, rollin, rollin, rollin...wishin dat u'll do better at de nex turn bt unbeknownst 2 our frail lil self our unconsciousness thinks ourself 2 b de same useless piece of meat, if not worse.

N so wat reli matters now is can v realise these moments 4 ourselves? Do v stand up n say i will change? Or is dat wat v v'll say 2 others bt never, truly, 2 ourselves? Do u say "wat de hell is dis guy rantin on about? Does he think he's sooo rite? I dun think so."? Oh, do u now? Well, perhaps u're now in dat moment, perhaps.

Bt afta all dat's said n done wat 1 thinks is up 2 one's self. It doesnt reli matter whether it's really rite or not. Cos humans can sumtimes b so dumb dat dey dun even realise de dumb things dey've done up till now, so much so dat dey dun even admit dey r dumb. N dat oso brings me 2 de nex point which is, yes, i do realise there is a gud side 2 each point i mention above, bt honestly...ask urself is it reli more often dat v think totes dat r 100% +ve 2 ourselves rather den de -ve 1's. If I slipped in de gud points rite afta de bad u mite not even think about anythin at all. Bcos when it comes dun 2 it, eventho adam n eve did eat de apple of knowledge of gud n evil, seriously, v mostly dunno hw 2 separate de both especially when it comes 2 dealin wif ourselves. So, if u've managed 2 read up till dis far, er congratulations i guess. Bt wat matters is wat happens afta dis. Whether or not sumthin struck a cord in u, whether or not if it was de rite cord. Again, it's up 2 u, fellow human.