Now
That I have nothing left
Will I burn 4 U again?
My being longs 4 it again
But
How long will de storm last?
...i used 2 yearn 4 storms=)
To b a better man
i noe=)
Thursday, 4 December 2008
Miao ~ ~
Hehe....exams r over!!....then again, there were only 2 papers XD
So now...1 month, huh...haha, not as much as i wish it were=) i wonder if i can get dat jigsaw done?....
Oh, n hapi 18th b'day XD
So now...1 month, huh...haha, not as much as i wish it were=) i wonder if i can get dat jigsaw done?....
Oh, n hapi 18th b'day XD
Thursday, 9 October 2008
Cool.
I found this..
At Central.
Cool, eh? I wonder if it's accidental or de designers knew dis would happen...
N on top of dat it was all caused by, this..
I mean, look at it....juz 3 rows of parallel lights n evenly spaced pub fons...wow ~ ~
At Central.
Cool, eh? I wonder if it's accidental or de designers knew dis would happen...
N on top of dat it was all caused by, this..
I mean, look at it....juz 3 rows of parallel lights n evenly spaced pub fons...wow ~ ~
Monday, 29 September 2008
"Old-timers"
XD 4 ppl like me..who njoy de "good old times"
An interestin n creativ work. Came across it not 2 long ago. Njoy!
Hero By Night:
http://www.drunkduck.com/Hero_By_Night/
Friday, 26 September 2008
A place to live
A roof over my head.
There's gotta b sumwhere i can stay....rite?? i mean, wat if there is no accommodation...then wat??? Feel kinda low now....now dat everythin hinges on every single decision i choose to make...XD it's gonna b a bumpy ride. All i can do now is 2 strap up n pray...fervently=D
Dat i will get a place 2 stay dat doesnt inconvenient me.
Giv me self-control dat i may once again do justice 2 Ur name.
Forgiv me
Guide me
Console my bro, breath strength, reignite him
Purge my sis, dat she may not hav 2 go thru wat i did, if not teach her n make her whole again dat she may live 2 fight another battle n emerge de victor
Tell me if de flower has bloomed
Now more than ever, Faith. If all else fails, at least, dat i will still hav..=)
Thank u. 4 everythin.
In Jesus' name.
Amen.
Amen
There's gotta b sumwhere i can stay....rite?? i mean, wat if there is no accommodation...then wat??? Feel kinda low now....now dat everythin hinges on every single decision i choose to make...XD it's gonna b a bumpy ride. All i can do now is 2 strap up n pray...fervently=D
Dat i will get a place 2 stay dat doesnt inconvenient me.
Giv me self-control dat i may once again do justice 2 Ur name.
Forgiv me
Guide me
Console my bro, breath strength, reignite him
Purge my sis, dat she may not hav 2 go thru wat i did, if not teach her n make her whole again dat she may live 2 fight another battle n emerge de victor
Tell me if de flower has bloomed
Now more than ever, Faith. If all else fails, at least, dat i will still hav..=)
Thank u. 4 everythin.
In Jesus' name.
Amen.
Amen
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
Pandemic
It is in de hse
Eatin in2 de soul, till there is
No soul
Eatin in2 de heart, a
Void of feelings
Can u feel it?
Have u felt it?
On the verge of
Imsomnia
Deadly
To the body
To the mind
To the
Soul
Is dis how it feels like to
Die
?
Everythin closin in. Everybody closin in.
No light. No space.
Hope?
All in God.
Nothing.
Nothing else to turn to. No
Body
To turn to.
Let ur will b done.
Giv me strength.
Giv me my sight again.
I crave
For it. Again.
Where is de silver lining?
Eatin in2 de soul, till there is
No soul
Eatin in2 de heart, a
Void of feelings
Can u feel it?
Have u felt it?
On the verge of
Imsomnia
Deadly
To the body
To the mind
To the
Soul
Is dis how it feels like to
Die
?
Everythin closin in. Everybody closin in.
No light. No space.
Hope?
All in God.
Nothing.
Nothing else to turn to. No
Body
To turn to.
Let ur will b done.
Giv me strength.
Giv me my sight again.
I crave
For it. Again.
Where is de silver lining?
Thursday, 18 September 2008
de bricks r laid down, de foundation in progress......towards the great wall...
"Cold...muscle-numbing, bone-jabbing cold" thought the shadow.
He could hardly believe himself when he let out a hearty laugh deep inside, thinking how his body could even now be functioning...but at the same time he understood...understood that he was now only vessel, a machine at the most, one nearing its expiration date. An empty being propelled forward dutifully on a fuel he so despises, Fear. A substance that was as foreign as the purpose of this delivery he was making..that was but a few months back. Now, Fear hung on to him like his shadow, like his oversized cloak he was donning...But the fact that he despises comforted him, like a dim but insistent existence in a dark corner of his mind telling him he's still human, muttering words of silent assurance.
'All for the better good' A steadfast mantra saving the already withered mind from utter obliteration. There were just too many thoughts to think of, too many answers to answer. 'After all, all they said was..' was what the shadow contemplated before his train of thought was brought to a complete standstill.
...Right now, he could not grasp the reason for his inability to either cry, convulse fitfully or even just knock his knees together. At his neck, he felt a cold, wanting steel. A blade that very much wanted to taste his flesh, blood and bones and somehow managed to voice out, to scream, its desires into the heart of its prey.
'So, the stories...they were true...
P.S. Of writer's block=)
He could hardly believe himself when he let out a hearty laugh deep inside, thinking how his body could even now be functioning...but at the same time he understood...understood that he was now only vessel, a machine at the most, one nearing its expiration date. An empty being propelled forward dutifully on a fuel he so despises, Fear. A substance that was as foreign as the purpose of this delivery he was making..that was but a few months back. Now, Fear hung on to him like his shadow, like his oversized cloak he was donning...But the fact that he despises comforted him, like a dim but insistent existence in a dark corner of his mind telling him he's still human, muttering words of silent assurance.
'All for the better good' A steadfast mantra saving the already withered mind from utter obliteration. There were just too many thoughts to think of, too many answers to answer. 'After all, all they said was..' was what the shadow contemplated before his train of thought was brought to a complete standstill.
...Right now, he could not grasp the reason for his inability to either cry, convulse fitfully or even just knock his knees together. At his neck, he felt a cold, wanting steel. A blade that very much wanted to taste his flesh, blood and bones and somehow managed to voice out, to scream, its desires into the heart of its prey.
'So, the stories...they were true...
P.S. Of writer's block=)
Sunday, 14 September 2008
Wonder where dis leads to.....??
The wind was calm. Calm as Artem was. Watching.
All was still save the lone shadow strolling along the path deserted by light, for as far as the eye could see, as if it were forsaken even by Emer.
"Pitiful being" whispered Artem barely breaking the silence. "So naive. So unsuspecting...It shall be no fun if he were to be wiped off the scrolls of Xenpeos now"
..
"Have not you so humbly been taught that looks can be deceiving, Artem?" a second voice spoke in hushed tones. "His face may look blank and bored but deep inside...yes, deep inside..." A pause, as if to grope about and taste the shadow's inner being. "He fears. He knows time is not on his side."
"You are not of the considerate type, Januanto. You spoil the suspense sometimes." Artem sighed and proceeded to another spying spot for the shadow had advanced much in the moments of their conversing.
"You tease your target too much, my young bored friend. You who easily tires and weary of your life will have much to regret in the future. I will take my leave then.."Januanto let out a half sigh as he retreated from the nothingness which once was a minute or two ago.
All was still save the lone shadow strolling along the path deserted by light, for as far as the eye could see, as if it were forsaken even by Emer.
"Pitiful being" whispered Artem barely breaking the silence. "So naive. So unsuspecting...It shall be no fun if he were to be wiped off the scrolls of Xenpeos now"
..
"Have not you so humbly been taught that looks can be deceiving, Artem?" a second voice spoke in hushed tones. "His face may look blank and bored but deep inside...yes, deep inside..." A pause, as if to grope about and taste the shadow's inner being. "He fears. He knows time is not on his side."
"You are not of the considerate type, Januanto. You spoil the suspense sometimes." Artem sighed and proceeded to another spying spot for the shadow had advanced much in the moments of their conversing.
"You tease your target too much, my young bored friend. You who easily tires and weary of your life will have much to regret in the future. I will take my leave then.."Januanto let out a half sigh as he retreated from the nothingness which once was a minute or two ago.
Oh.....RELI??!
Well, well=) Actuarial studies, huh?..dat's surprising=)
Izit His will? Gotta pray about it...stil no news from Monbu....prob din get it XD
Izit His will? Gotta pray about it...stil no news from Monbu....prob din get it XD
Sunday, 10 August 2008
^^^^^
Haha=) Praise God! 3 A's n a B. Phew....din xpect such results. Seriously. Once again i hav failed 2 put in 100% XD Reli thank God 4 my results. I nearly got an arrest waitin 4 de result page 2 load=D Now, i hav made my parents n most importantly myself a promise....a promise 2 NOT slack off again in uni.....i pray God givs me de strength i so desperately need 2 keep dis promise 4 He noes i'm not very gud at it=)
So, got a laptop of my own 2.....juz hope i can make de best of my hols now=D
TTFN.
So, got a laptop of my own 2.....juz hope i can make de best of my hols now=D
TTFN.
Tuesday, 22 July 2008
2 at a go.....n i'm done=D
Have a blog?
- No, I found these in the dump. Aint mine.....
Where is it?
- Rite where u're lookin dis very instant
How long hav u been blogging?
- Over 9360 hours.
How did u start blogging n y?
- No reason. Prob cos my bro has 1=)
Wat do u rite in ur blog?
- Look rite, scroll down, n start clicking. Den u'll c wat i rite=)
Wat kind of blog izit?
- De kind u find everywhere else(?)
How many hits do u get a day?
- No idea
Do u hav pics on ur blog?
- Does de person who started dis tag not hav eyes or sumthin=.="......prob dat's y dis q's r asked......bt, yes. I hav.
Do u put ur real name on de blog?
- There is a 50/50 chance dat it is....go figure
Does every1 know u hav a blog?
- No.
Wat is ur fav blog site?
- None
Who is allowed 2 visit ur blog?
- Every1 i guess......or prob not....i cant rmb my settings....2 lazy 2 check=)
Do u wanna b a famous blogger?
- 2 a certain extent, yes=)
Izit important dat u visit ur blog everyday?
- Nope=D
Is blogging important 2 u?
- Not De most important thing bt it's fun=)
Bout de other tag, i'm not gg wif rule 3=D
Ok...
15 weird things bout me.....
1. I dun like( or actually HATE) doing wat de majority does....most of de time=)
2. I hav a third eye.......well, i wish i had=) Ok, seriously, when i feel sleepy i pop de joints in my neck and spine n i feel awake, 100%.
3. De "awakening" in point 2 lasts 4 30mins 2 1 hour
4. I used 2 think ppl were constantly spying on me....which means my life is kinda boring. So i decided 2 spice it up a lil=)
5. I believe I can fly......is a great song. I luv maths. I truly do bt i never bring myself 2 research on it on de internet.
6. I hav an item equiped 2 my mind called "Cage of Forgetfulness". Attributes - Has a 50% chance of erasing memory of wat happened anywhere btw 1 min 2 48 hrs ago, has a 90% chance of causing user 2 procastinate n never do wat he intends 2 =D
7. I kick any1 who sleeps wif me on my bed. Yes, it includes family members 2.
8. Err.....i'm addicted 2 de internet(?)
9. I used 2 hav lazy eyes. Now, dey're de only part of my body which is not lazy=)
10. I dun feel.
I'm not tagging any1 cause i dun wanna trouble dem n cause myself unnecessary worry n doubt if dey dun do it=) So, b thankful those i do not trouble=D Hav a nice day!
- No, I found these in the dump. Aint mine.....
Where is it?
- Rite where u're lookin dis very instant
How long hav u been blogging?
- Over 9360 hours.
How did u start blogging n y?
- No reason. Prob cos my bro has 1=)
Wat do u rite in ur blog?
- Look rite, scroll down, n start clicking. Den u'll c wat i rite=)
Wat kind of blog izit?
- De kind u find everywhere else(?)
How many hits do u get a day?
- No idea
Do u hav pics on ur blog?
- Does de person who started dis tag not hav eyes or sumthin=.="......prob dat's y dis q's r asked......bt, yes. I hav.
Do u put ur real name on de blog?
- There is a 50/50 chance dat it is....go figure
Does every1 know u hav a blog?
- No.
Wat is ur fav blog site?
- None
Who is allowed 2 visit ur blog?
- Every1 i guess......or prob not....i cant rmb my settings....2 lazy 2 check=)
Do u wanna b a famous blogger?
- 2 a certain extent, yes=)
Izit important dat u visit ur blog everyday?
- Nope=D
Is blogging important 2 u?
- Not De most important thing bt it's fun=)
Bout de other tag, i'm not gg wif rule 3=D
Ok...
15 weird things bout me.....
1. I dun like( or actually HATE) doing wat de majority does....most of de time=)
2. I hav a third eye.......well, i wish i had=) Ok, seriously, when i feel sleepy i pop de joints in my neck and spine n i feel awake, 100%.
3. De "awakening" in point 2 lasts 4 30mins 2 1 hour
4. I used 2 think ppl were constantly spying on me....which means my life is kinda boring. So i decided 2 spice it up a lil=)
5. I believe I can fly......is a great song. I luv maths. I truly do bt i never bring myself 2 research on it on de internet.
6. I hav an item equiped 2 my mind called "Cage of Forgetfulness". Attributes - Has a 50% chance of erasing memory of wat happened anywhere btw 1 min 2 48 hrs ago, has a 90% chance of causing user 2 procastinate n never do wat he intends 2 =D
7. I kick any1 who sleeps wif me on my bed. Yes, it includes family members 2.
8. Err.....i'm addicted 2 de internet(?)
9. I used 2 hav lazy eyes. Now, dey're de only part of my body which is not lazy=)
10. I dun feel.
I'm not tagging any1 cause i dun wanna trouble dem n cause myself unnecessary worry n doubt if dey dun do it=) So, b thankful those i do not trouble=D Hav a nice day!
Monday, 21 July 2008
For the silent cat.....who is big
I got tagged.....
Name: Paul
Nick: Cheese, Cheese n yam(?), Pomelo(4 those wif chinese background, u'll figure out y=D)
Married: One day....hopefully=)
Male/Female: M
Highsch: De 1 opposite de shopping complex with a bus station in the capital of a state whose name consists of at least an 'a' in a country with an 'a' or more on Earth.
Coll: TUC
Short/Long hair: Short(?)
Health freak: Kinda=) wont call myself a freak tho=D
Height: Tall enough 2 go on all rides not enough to give Yao Ming a wedgie XD
Crush on sum1: Yea.
Like myself: Not 4 most of de time
Piercings: 1 in eyes, 1 in soul
RH/LH: Rite...
1st
Surgery: '97
Piercing: Cant rmb.....
Person u c in de morn: Dad(?)
Award:..........no idea
Sports i joined: Badminton
Pet: Do bacterias count? I do feed n raise dem up afta all........
Vacation:.....Cant rmb
Concert: Er.....if i rmb correctly.........nil
1st crush: Charmaine
Currently
Eating: Air
Drinking: Saliva
Bout 2: Sleep( got sum scolding bt doesnt matter=D)
In the future
Want kids: Almost definitely if de bottom is achieved
Want 2 get married: Yes=)
Careers: Accountant, Financial Planner, Actor, Singer......every1's been there b4=D
Lips/Eyes: ?.?
Hugs/Kisses: Wat in de world do these mean???......?
Shorter/Taller: Preferably shorter tho height is not a matter=)
Romantic/Spontaneous: Spon
Sensitive/Loud: Sensitive
Troublemaker/Hesitant: Hesitant
Have u ever
Kissed a stranger: Not lately. (When i was small yes.....dun go gettin ideas=D)
Drank bubbles: Tempted 2 XD
Lost glasses/contacts: Glasses. Yes. 1 2 many times=)
Ran away frm home: Honoestly......no=) Tote of it tho=D
Liked sum1 younger: definitely=)
Liked sum1 older: Mhmm
Broke sum1's heart: Yes. ( Again, 1 2 many)
Cried when sum1 died: ......No....weird bt dat's de plain truth.
Do u believe in
Believe in urself: More often than not, not.
Heaven: Absolutely=)
Santa Claus: Nope. Think it's total rubbish. Never believed it=D
Magic: Yes. Work of de devil. No, white magic, juz magic or more ordinarily known as black magic. White magic=Miracles. Now, dat's from God n dat aint magic....Bt if u insist, i dun mind.
Angels: Yep=)
The truth
Sum1 u 1 2 b wif rite now: Yes=D
Believe in God: Yes....bt ashamedly, my faith has weakened. Not 2 de point of backsliding or anywhere near dat bt....it used 2 b stronger. Workin on it=)
Name: Paul
Nick: Cheese, Cheese n yam(?), Pomelo(4 those wif chinese background, u'll figure out y=D)
Married: One day....hopefully=)
Male/Female: M
Highsch: De 1 opposite de shopping complex with a bus station in the capital of a state whose name consists of at least an 'a' in a country with an 'a' or more on Earth.
Coll: TUC
Short/Long hair: Short(?)
Health freak: Kinda=) wont call myself a freak tho=D
Height: Tall enough 2 go on all rides not enough to give Yao Ming a wedgie XD
Crush on sum1: Yea.
Like myself: Not 4 most of de time
Piercings: 1 in eyes, 1 in soul
RH/LH: Rite...
1st
Surgery: '97
Piercing: Cant rmb.....
Person u c in de morn: Dad(?)
Award:..........no idea
Sports i joined: Badminton
Pet: Do bacterias count? I do feed n raise dem up afta all........
Vacation:.....Cant rmb
Concert: Er.....if i rmb correctly.........nil
1st crush: Charmaine
Currently
Eating: Air
Drinking: Saliva
Bout 2: Sleep( got sum scolding bt doesnt matter=D)
In the future
Want kids: Almost definitely if de bottom is achieved
Want 2 get married: Yes=)
Careers: Accountant, Financial Planner, Actor, Singer......every1's been there b4=D
Lips/Eyes: ?.?
Hugs/Kisses: Wat in de world do these mean???......?
Shorter/Taller: Preferably shorter tho height is not a matter=)
Romantic/Spontaneous: Spon
Sensitive/Loud: Sensitive
Troublemaker/Hesitant: Hesitant
Have u ever
Kissed a stranger: Not lately. (When i was small yes.....dun go gettin ideas=D)
Drank bubbles: Tempted 2 XD
Lost glasses/contacts: Glasses. Yes. 1 2 many times=)
Ran away frm home: Honoestly......no=) Tote of it tho=D
Liked sum1 younger: definitely=)
Liked sum1 older: Mhmm
Broke sum1's heart: Yes. ( Again, 1 2 many)
Cried when sum1 died: ......No....weird bt dat's de plain truth.
Do u believe in
Believe in urself: More often than not, not.
Heaven: Absolutely=)
Santa Claus: Nope. Think it's total rubbish. Never believed it=D
Magic: Yes. Work of de devil. No, white magic, juz magic or more ordinarily known as black magic. White magic=Miracles. Now, dat's from God n dat aint magic....Bt if u insist, i dun mind.
Angels: Yep=)
The truth
Sum1 u 1 2 b wif rite now: Yes=D
Believe in God: Yes....bt ashamedly, my faith has weakened. Not 2 de point of backsliding or anywhere near dat bt....it used 2 b stronger. Workin on it=)
Tuesday, 15 July 2008
Dis is a definite heart-stirrer.....
It's from Toy Story 2....juz in case any1 hasnt watched it yet=)
N those wif a.....knack 4 square, circles, triangles and crosses make a visit to http://www.theleetworld.com/ if u havent yet....u're missing out. Great productions=) Here's a short from dem. I'm sure u can connect=D Njoy! http://www.theleetworld.com/2008/01/18/portal-a-day-in-the-life-of-a-turret-2/
Some old cartoons i miss.....hope it brings bak nice memories=)
This was absolutely brilliant=) Very touching...
Loved it=D
Nothing need be said....Hehe=)
Makes me feel like seeing dem all over again....i wonder if dey're stil airing....(?)
Thursday, 26 June 2008
Well.....i wonder if this says sumthing...XD
I stumbled on2 dis site when i mistakenly typed in http://mysourceofhope.blogpsot.com/. LOL
K....dis is a random post, i admit....oh, n i finally decided. I'm gg 2 help. In oct=) Hehe....dat's sumthin off my mind=) now.....i can finally. ENJOY =D
Ah.
Breeze. Cool.
Summer. Wasn't so bad.
Winter. Wonder if i'll last.
...Well, i'll njoy de scenery for now.
Scarlet, yellow, muddy leaves.
Fall.
All around me. Breath in.
Invigorating air.
Sigh....relief.
K....dis is a random post, i admit....oh, n i finally decided. I'm gg 2 help. In oct=) Hehe....dat's sumthin off my mind=) now.....i can finally. ENJOY =D
Ah.
Breeze. Cool.
Summer. Wasn't so bad.
Winter. Wonder if i'll last.
...Well, i'll njoy de scenery for now.
Scarlet, yellow, muddy leaves.
Fall.
All around me. Breath in.
Invigorating air.
Sigh....relief.
Wednesday, 25 June 2008
Sunday, 22 June 2008
Haha...my prom nite. Couple of shots...regretted that i din take more shots tho=D
The 1st is photo of Mun Jean, Yi Rhu, Pei Wern and Lay pin(left to right). Makes me realise wat prom does to girls XD
Nex is me!! N Roong Jien. He's an ex-Taylorian now in KBU under JPA scholarship. Nice guy=)Wonder wat he's doing there??=D
Most of de guys in my class(dat attended de prom. no, my class is not dat 'privileged' XD) Well then, again from left to right, Raveen, Kuhan, Mr Seo(physics lecturer), Chong Jin(lol), Me n Rasyad.
Well, prom was fun especially the "strip dances". Haha....Johnathan was absolutely sporting=). N....it was a gay strip XD
Food was so-so bt not like any1 was reli paying attention bout de food tho....xcept 4 me=D Bt de dance floor was.....not as i imagined tho...haha=) Otherwise, it was fine.
Thursday, 12 June 2008
Yay!!
Exams are over!!!! Bt.....
Now hav 2 look up 4 uni courses.......cant play like mad=(.....XD
Now.....de question is......2 drive or not 2 drive? =D
Btw, here's a shot of the chem lab's entrance in TUC...afta de renovations=) i hope it shows up...still not sure how to post a pict XD
Now hav 2 look up 4 uni courses.......cant play like mad=(.....XD
Now.....de question is......2 drive or not 2 drive? =D
Btw, here's a shot of the chem lab's entrance in TUC...afta de renovations=) i hope it shows up...still not sure how to post a pict XD
Monday, 14 April 2008
4 2nite....
yep. i'm bak 2 blogging.....4 2nite XD. lots of stuff been happening since de last post....who'd b surprised??=D
anyways........de final of de finals r comin.......gotta gear up and suit up 4 de final battle. hope i'm up 2 de challenge=) i'll work hard n i'll pray....let's c wat happens.
TTFN.
anyways........de final of de finals r comin.......gotta gear up and suit up 4 de final battle. hope i'm up 2 de challenge=) i'll work hard n i'll pray....let's c wat happens.
TTFN.
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